1/3 Life Crisis?

So I have been giving this some thought recently... I am thinking that a little bit of this FOMO problem that I mentioned previously is maybe something to do with my mortality.

It is possible that I am having a breakdown about the fact that I am getting older. Here are some examples:

1. I need to figure out if I am going to have another baby or not RIGHT NOW because I am already 32. I am not getting any younger and with all of the bad things I have done to my body over time, it is only going to get harder from here.
2. I need to BQ RIGHT NOW (not to mention RUN ALL THE RACES!) because I am only getting older, which means I am going to get slower.
3. I have already gotten to do all of the "cool growing up milestones". I am married. I own a house and a car. I have had a baby. I have a job. Now what?

Yeah. I know that these are all unrealistic things. All of them. Nothing about that is rational at this point. But I cannot help the way that I feel.

I mentioned this to Charlie, and he made a very good point.
Addie.

She has milestones now. Those milestones of hers become mine. Her first steps. First day of school. First lost tooth. First broken heart. Graduation... All of it.

I think it is going to take some work to get there. To come to some realization about what my goals are and how to best achieve them. But I think that realizing that I am freaking out about that fact that I am getting older, that I am over thirty (by a few years now), and that it does not mean that my life is over will help. At least, I hope it will help?

So I am going to try. I am going to figure this out.

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