Exhaustion and Self Doubt

I am the most exhausted I think I have been since Addie was born. And it is not 100% her fault. Granted, I am still getting up in the middle of the night once per night (she slept from 9 pm to 3 am last night!) but that is definitely not all that is going on. Here are things that I believe contribute to my exhaustion:
1. Waking up once in the middle of the night, every night (obviously).
2. Being back at work full time. With my new boss (my former one left right before I had Addie. Seriously, his last day was the day before my doctor's appointment where they told me that I was going in that night to be induced!) here now, there are a lot of new things to do and learn and look at. We are trying to make tons of improvements to the team and how we do things, and that is taking up a lot of time. No more mid-month slacking off for Emily!
3. I am hitting it HARD at the gym. No more casual runs. I am lifting 3 days per week, doing HIIT workouts, and trying to squeeze in long runs so I can still reach my Indy Monumental goal (FINISH!)
4. I am adjusting to my new diet. I am eating more food overall, but it is definitely very different food than what I was eating previously. That is a good thing, but as I am not having any added sugar or anything, it has been a little bit trickier to get adjusted. I am hoping soon enough I will be through cravings, etc, and then can really focus on getting back to the old me.
This is my girl feeling content post-booger sucker. It is our little routine, and I hate feeling too tired to spend this time with her. Obviously, at this point, I do it anyway as I am her food source.

I am crossing my fingers that I can get over this hump with a few really solid nights of sleep and one strong training run. That can just make a girl feel better.


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