Trying to Look on the Bright Side

After the day I had today, drinking is necessary.  Lol.  I know that I am trying to be good and get my diet on track, but this weekend might be out.  And to be honest, I might be ok with it.  I say that now, but ask me tomorrow after I have had several beers.  Oh man.  I wish I would think about that while consuming because the guilt just builds up for me.  But even though I am thinking about it now, it will not change my behavior because I know that I should not feel guilty about it. 

So I guess I need to find the trade off.  Is the guilt worse?  Or is the drinking?  Probably the guilt, since I am certainly not excessively drinking ever.  And I am not trying to compete any more, so its not a big deal to enjoy beverages and carbs.  I have to remind myself of these things pretty often.  Things are definitely messed up in my brain with the guilt, etc.  I shouldn'thave the guilt. 
Anyway, enough of that Debbie Downer stuff.
My dad is supposed to be coming down here to visit tomorrow.  We don't have a lot of plans for us to do tomorrow.  I am not yet sure that he will be down here but I hope that he makes it.  They are supposed to have a snowstorm up in my hometown tonight/tomorrow morning, so he said he wanted to see how the roads are before he commits to coming or not.  I hope everything is pretty clear though, because I really do want to see him this weekend.  I feel like it has been a while since I have seen my family even though Christmas was less than a month ago!

So regardless of anything else going on, I want him to come.  He said he was looking at a couple of condos this week, and so he wanted to go to IKEA tomorrow.  I guess he doesn't know the history of J and I at IKEA (we went there with both of our mom's right after we bought the house and had a HUGE fight at the store!) I just don't think that us going there together is good for us.  So J suggested that we drop him off at BW3 so he could watch the Bearcats game and we can go to the store without him.  I think that might work. 

He also wants to go to Arthur's for dinner tomorrow night.  We discovered that restaurant more than 10 years ago when I was attending XU and he loves it.  They used to serve brunch on Sunday mornings and so we have had dinners and brunches there for years.  J has never been there before, so I am kind of excited to show him something that is part of my Cincinnati instead of the other way around.  He has certainly shown me a lot of different things in the time that we have been together.

So I am going to take a deep breath and try and enjoy my night.  Wish me luck with the beers and the guilt.


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