motivation needed–and exams
Well, yesterday was an experiment. All of you know that I have been struggling since I returned from my honeymoon. I even got a new plan in hopes that it would help! Yeah… still struggling…
So yesterday I decided that I was going to suck it up, and see what my body could do on its own, and eat minimally. And force myself to stick with it.
So I did it. I don’t want to go into details, suffice to say I underate yesterday, but I was planning on doing that. It kind of made up for all of the overeating that I have been doing since my wedding!
Today I am trying to use that motivation that I created for myself yesterday and turn it into a good food day. What I have planned so far is definitely on track, so that is a positive if nothing else. Now I just need to stick with that plan. Its strange, but lower carb days are easier for me as I feel more in control on those days then on the days when I eat higher carbs. Does that make sense at all?
Let’s be honest, life has kind of been a struggle after my return. I just can’t seem to get anything together. I haven’t done ANY studying, even though I have completely finished another section of my class. I have a test in just a few weeks.
Speaking of tests, I got my scores back on the first one. A big fat fail. That figures. I am very upset about it, I have to be honest. I worked harder on that first exam than I have ever worked on a test before, whether it was high school, college, SAT, or the CPA prior to now. so I am not sure what else I can do in order to do better on the test than what I have already done.
Yes, its true. I am thisclose to giving up.