Yesterday went pretty well. I cooked a new recipe from the clean-eating magazine website, which was pretty good. The recipe served four, so I have some leftovers for lunch today.
Morning win: I just got an email that said that there were brownies in the break room (my recent state of overload has made brownies acceptable all the time – FYI) and I read it, deleted and thought, I don’t even want a brownie. I got my sweet on with my breakfast this morning which consisted of a quest bar, and a muscle milk light, leftover from last weekend’s race for the cure swag bag. It was pretty good.
SO yes, this morning’s breakfast was those two things, and I felt pretty good about them.
I had a long talk with my friend Carol. She is on Spark, but I don’t think she has a sparkpage or blog or anything. I referred her to it and told her it was what I used to track all of my calories and stuff. She likes it so far. But we were talking about my struggle last night. I helped her figure out what would help her and now she is my accountability partner. Because she is struggling too. It is easier to have a partner who understands. Leah gets me too though.
The difference between the two is that Carol has been in the super –bad, binge on ice cream state, and I am not sure that Leah has. I need them both to hold me to the high standards that I hold myself to. And I am working hard to remind myself of what my goals are. I am going to start tracking my intake a little differently. I am going to ask myself how I feel when I eat. I know they say that you should do this, and I cannot believe I have never done it before. Maybe it will help me to tackle some of the demons that I have been working through constantly since I began trying to get a handle on myself and come to terms with the fact that eating is actually important and is FUEL for your body to run as it is supposed to!
So I am taking notes on how I feel. We’ll see if doing it for a week (or something!) can help me figure this all out. I am ready to be back to myself, which means HEALTHY and eating right!