Confessions… and a change?
This morning was a HIIT morning. As you know, HIIT days are not my favorite, because I always only have worked out for a half hour. And that is it. And despite the fact that I am absolutely DRIPPING in sweat by the time the half hour is over, I still feel like it wasn’t enough. So that is kind of sucky. But I am considering taking Teek for a walk this evening, so that might be a little extra, right?
I have my meals COMPLETELY planned for the day, down to the individual gram of protein. I need to show myself that I am capable of sticking to a plan since yesterday was another eff up. I don’t really want to talk about it, because even as I was messing up I was aware of the fact that I was doing it. I am not sure what the trigger was that caused it.
I have a quick confession.
I know this will sound silly but I am afraid that my off plan eating might resemble secret eating. I only eat when J is not around. When he is there I eat all of my good planned foods (including casein pudding for dessert when he is having a jello pudding cup!) But last night (as an example) he goes down the basement to play a video game, leaving me a lone to do an hour or so of studying, and I open up the can where I have stored my goodies and eat a black and white brownie. Delicious, high in protein, well within my maintenance macros, but I am trying to get in shape for a competition!
Here is my big news… I am thinking that I am going to stick with bikini for this comp, but then make a move to figure competition if I choose to do any more. I think that is going to be more for me.