Damn damn damn. I did not write yesterday, which means I have to start that count over AGAIN. I was really close the first time around, and have only gotten 2 or 3 days since then. Damn damn damn.

Jason seems to be of the opinion this morning that when life hands you lemons, you should squirt them in the eye. I felt like that meant something had happened, and kind of drilled him on it. I feel bad for drilling him, but I cannot help the worry. I mean, admittedly, my immediate thought was that Jen had called. God, if I ever hated anyone, it is her. However, I got off the phone with him at 11 pm and he was already in bed. And then this message about lemons was around 6:30 am. So I am truly hoping he is just in a mood today (as he tends to get that way sometimes), as he insisted it was. I couldn't stand the thought of her getting in my way right as things are finally the way that they should have been a year ago!

So world, keep your fingers crossed, just as I am.

No word yet on whether the move to Lafayette is happening. He is interviewing there officially on October 16. I have mixed feelings about it. It means a big raise, a great opportunity for his career, etc, etc, but it means he will be leaving me for two years-ish. I hate that too. It has been determined that we are not going to break up just because he is moving away, but two years is a long time to have a weekend relationship. I mean, we have both admitted to missing each other after 3 days! I am just not sure how we'll get along with once per week, or even once every two weeks!

Its going to stress me out. At some point, I feel like I am going to have to say, if this is still working after xxx amount of time, we should consider me moving out there. I mean, how long should you be with someone when you are 26 and 28 (soon to be 29?) before you make things permanent? I mean, we have been together for 6 months, and we have been on and off (more on) for the last year, so I am not sure on those things. I know that you do not need to do the "be together for at least 4 years" thing once you get to our ages, as you are done developing into who you will become at that point. That was some insight that I received from my therapist. It helps to know that, but I am still not sure how and when that will apply to me.

I wish he would cheer up. I love happy Jason.


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