I am so tired. I am tired of fretting, tired of wondering, tired of trying to wrap my head around myself and make sense of how I am.

My therapist said when I saw her on Monday that the reason that you can get married more quickly in a relationship once you get older is because at about 25 or 26 you are who you are. You are done developing as a person. (Now that scares me a little because of the irrationality I have about some things, but at the same time, I am learning to control it.) So that means I know who I am (?) I guess. I don't know, it is certainly going to take some work, little by little, I will become more secure in this person, right?

God, I hope so. The more secure I am with me, the more secure I can be in my relationship. Right now I am really tired.


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