Something is really wrong with my brain today, I think. I am feeling really stressed and overwhelmed. I am about to take a Valium for the first time in a few weeks. I have been avoiding them recently because I have not needed them for anything, and it is one of those "take as necessary" kind of things.

Chris has me all shaken up about things, again. I am so angry with him right now, I am not even sure what to do. I am seriously to the point of really hating him. He has completely ruined any chance of friendship that I feel like we might have had or could have had. I am just so absolutely furious.

Its like once again, months after we break up, and even after I have moved on and felt good about moving on, he has reentered my brain and it makes me want to cry all over again.

I hate him so much!

And now that he is on my mind, I am starting to freak out about all kinds of other things... For instance, its now three weeks after my random sex encounter. I am on the pill, and we used a condom, but since I am already in freak out mode, I am now afraid that what if I don't get my period this week like I am supposed to? That is definitely not something I could handle right now.


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