I am afraid. I hate when I get like this. I did hear from B last night after all, but just in the form of a few brief texts. Does the fact that he got in touch with me at all mean he is interested? Or does the fact that he text me rather than call mean that he is about done?

I have no idea, and that kind of sucks. But I suppose it is one of those things... I am just going to have to wait and see what happens.

My plan is to test him in the late morning and tell him that I hope he has a less stressful day today, and let him know that if he wants to meet me for a drink or a bite to eat on Friday night I would be up for that. I figure it is really all I can do at this point. You know, ask him out myself and hope that he responds. And then if he does (and hopefully he will!) we'll have to see how the date goes. It will be the third, and so I would be hoping for the first kiss. I feel like if I get the third date, if I get the first kiss, then I can stop worrying so much.

After all, it is not like we're not both completely slammed with our schedules right now. I work from 8-5 and then rehearse 4 nights per week. He sleeps in, drives an hour to wear he works, gives lessons all afternoon, and then has his own rehearsal 5 nights per week. I mean, how on earth are we supposed to work schedules like that? I have to keep reminding myself of that so I don't freak out.

And also, what the hell is wrong with me that I am even tempted to freak out at all? I have only been on two dates with this gentleman, and while he is very sweet, caring, considerate, and fantastic looking, I shouldn't already be falling for him. I mean, isn't that impossible? If it is not impossible, then it should be, so I don't end up defeated. Again.

Growl. I wish I could relax and go with the flow a little better here.


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